2021: SOMETHING BRIEF

The time is 9:16 PM. I’m ready to head out and get the party rolling for the new year. I’ll go to church. I’ll pray, genuinely. I’ll blow fireworks. Then, I’ll send my closest friends text messages unique to each of them.

It’s my best way to start a new year. Completing old traditions and carrying my old friends too. It’s my way.

But, before 2021 ends, let me say one or two.

This year was wild. Wilder than 2020, or any other year actually. Plenty hangovers. Some money. More action.

Till NLS burst my bubble, 2021 looked and felt like the first year of my adult life. Now that I’m reading and studying and going to lectures again, I’ve lost a little bit of that freedom and the feeling that comes with.

Thing about a wild life is that it can remove your capacity to deal with your thoughts and emotions. Not necessarily, but it can and it did, with me.

I wasn’t as close to God. I was emotionally disconnected from many things, and many people.

The best way to describe that state of being could be to say I was like “Red Krypronite Clark” or “Venom-infected Peter Parker”.

In 2022, I want to reconnect in a way with my good guy side because that side is more in tune with his emotions, more appreciative of the little things and slightly more spiritual.

The good guy side can stay, so long as its only around for 20% of the time.

The wild life in the wild me goes nowhere, yet.

I’ll probably change the percentage sharing when the euphoria of the New Year hits. But then again, euphoria is euphoric because it never lasts.

In 2022, my advice to myself is “Do not to lie to yourself. Whatever you do, don’t pretend it’s not you doing it. It is you.”

Only by the acceptance and realisation of one’s true self will any meaningful change follow.

Happy New Year to me and anyone who somehow, someway reads this piece!